Following up an online posting for a job. The client offered $20 (I assumed an hour) to manage his tech support team. However…
Client: Okay, so that’s $400 per month and a bonus for performance.
Me: What? I couldn’t even afford my cable and electricity bills on that.
Client: Oh, so you’re…
Ika’y mumunting alon
Na may malaking hatid
Di mabilang na ngiti
At luhang matamis
Kinang na ‘di nakakasilaw
At bangong hinahanap-hanap
Ika’y ligaya ko
Dahilan din ng pagluha
At ng tapang ko
Ika’y lakas ko
At ng kahinaan
Na pilit kong itinatago
Ika’y isang munti na
Nais kong angkinin
Kahit ika’y mula sa’kin
Ika’y malaya na
Ngumiti at tumawa
Magalit at lumuha
You’ll never catch that moment again
The electric shock both of you felt
The innocent touch of two different lips
The short moment both of you escaped.
Those were just moments you miss
And now you have to come back to reality
This bittersweet truth of your companionship
Where reasoning must be kept mute.
Then you ask over and over again
Where have all those butterflies gone?
The more you get to know each other
The more both of you become distant.
I cannot describe what a strong woman or a woman of strength is. However I have been blessed to experience what I consider the totality of being a woman and that was to carry a child in my womb for nine months and to give birth to it. I have survived the difficult times brought by hormonal imbalances. I have survived the painful moments brought by labor. I was able to manage delivering my baby to this world even if in the middle of pushing I was wishing I could go on a cesarean section. And after giving birth, I only realized this is going to be forever. I thought maybe I could revive my strength by sleeping one straight 8-hour sleep after a week of giving birth. But immediately it hit me that maybe I can only experience that again if my baby starts to live on her own. And the irony here is that I don’t want that time to come. I wish we could stay like this forever - my baby sleeping peacefully after feeding milk and me constantly waking in the wee hours of the morning to attend to her needs. I never thought I could be this strong. Yet I do complain a lot of times also (especially when I started working). But my baby became the reason of my being. She completed me.
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Communication is vital to any relationship. However it should always be a two-way communication or the things you thought both of you started building will slowly fall apart.
Found these old poems I did way back in 2008&2009! :)
DREAMING (10-21-08)
When I close my eyes, my feet start to move
I go to places I never once knew
Some scares me, some excites me
Some seems real, some seems weird.
But on most of my travels I smile a lot
For in the places I go I see people I like
I eat food I like, I drink drinks I like
And I can just be what I want.
I can jump to the skies without learning to fly
I can swim deep down the sea and say to fishes “Hi!”
I can kiss the one I love and have him kiss me back
I can just stay forever beside him, just holding his hand.
It’s as if in a blink of an eye I can be wherever I want
In a snap of a finger I can be whoever but not in disguise
There are no rules, no walls, no boxes, no guides
It’s just freedom… no other words can describe.
UNTITLED (10-21-08?)
If you lose your wealth, your house, your car
And everything you have on your hands
Will you be sad?
If you lose your friend, your family, your love ones
And everyone you have in your life
Will you be depressed?
But what if you lose yourself?
You may no longer have a concept of what emotions to feel…
Because you can feel all of them at the same time.
But what if you lose all?
Will you think you can still find God as your companion,
Your friend, your Savior?
What if you forgot Him?
Do you think you’ve totally lost everything?
But what if He appears in front of you?
Would you still feel empty or fooled by life or used by circumstances?
Will you accept Him?
Will you allow Him to be recognized by you?
Will you allow yourself to be comforted by Him?
‘WAG KA SANANG MAGAGALIT (Timmy’s version) (12-27-08)
‘Wag ka sanang magagalit kung palagi kitang pinupuna
Ang bawat galaw mo ay madalas kong masita…
‘Wag ka sanang magagalit kung pasigaw akong magsalita
Kung madalas ang boses ko ay nakakairita…
Bukas ikaw pa rin ang makakasama ko at sa mga darating pang araw
Ang bawat kilos mo kailangan kong pakisamahan
Sa mga araw pang darating kasama kita sa lahat
Makasanayan ko man ang mga ugali mo o
Makasanayan mo ang pamumuna ko…
‘Wag ka sanang magagalit kung hinihiling kong makasama ka palagi
Hindi lang sa salita o sa ala-ala kundi sa pisikal na kaanyuan
‘Wag ka sanang magagalit kung mahigpit na ang aking hawak
‘Wag mong ipagdamdam ang katotohanang
Wala ng araw na sisikat sa’kin
‘Pag ika’y nawala.
(Sinulat ko ‘to para kay Gym na boyfriend ko pa lang noon na madalas kong awayin kahit na mahal na mahal ko sya..) :)
UNTITLED (12-27-08)
Nalulunod ako
Kahit na marunong akong lumangoy
Ang pagkampay ng mga braso
At padyak ng bawat binti
Ang hinga mula sa bibig
At tubig sa iyong mga mata
Kabisado ko na.
Ang paglangoy ay parang pagkain na lamang
Pero lumalangoy akong mag-isa
Ang alon ay nanggagaling lamang sa’kin…
Nang sumabay ang hangin
Naiba ang takbo ng tubig
Sa isang iglap nakalimot ako
Ang paghinga sa tubig at
Pakikipaglaro sa bisig nito…
UNTITLED (07-06-09)
Paano aamining wala na sila
Nagpapanggap na tunay ang lahat
Diretso na ang linya na may
Malungkot na awiting iisa ang nota
Hawak-kamay pa rin sila
May sinasabi pang “Mahal na mahal kita!”
Paano tatanggaping wala na nga sila?
Pilit iniiwasan ang malungkot na katotohanan
Babasagin ko ba ang mundo nila
Na sa panaginip na lang makikita?
O hahayaan na lang silang magbulang-bulagan?
Hey, I thought of you today
I thought that I should tell you
How much I miss you
Remember what you used to say?
Friends forever!
I hope that we’ll remain this way
Woh-oh
All this time
I’ve been thinking about the way we used to play
You’re everywhere I go
I can’t escape you
When I close my eyes I see you
Even in my sleep I dream of you
Woh-oh
I miss you!
Can we put the blame on the changing times?
Where have all the years gone by?
So fast, so young, so sure that this will never end
I’ll always stand by you my friend
But forever was just too long
All this time
I’ve been thinking about the way we used to play
You’re everywhere I go
I can’t escape you
When I close my eyes I see you
Even in my sleep I dream of you
Woh-oh
I miss you!
All this time
I’ve been thinking about the way we used to play
You’re everywhere I go
I can’t escape you
When I close my eyes I see you
Even in my sleep I dream of you
Woh-oh
All this time
I’ve been thinking about the promises we made
You’re everywhere I go
I can’t escape you
When I close my eyes I see you
Even in my sleep I dream of you
Woh-oh
I miss you…
I miss you so… I miss you… I miss you so… I miss you so… I miss you so… I miss you so… Woh-oh-oh
Namiss ko mag-banda.. :) Namiss ko kumanta sa stage! hehehe!
